The On Button

Technology. The World Wide Web.  I remember sitting at an old computer in a urban downtown video pool amazed at the idea of messages sent and recieved in a matter of 'minutes' to any where in the World.  I was chosen to participate in a federal/provincial funded pilot project for low income individuals interested in computers - specifically HTML.

As I sat facing the computer I recall being nervous to touch it. I was afraid I would break something or if I pressed the wrong button something horrible would happen.  As the instructor patiently explained the 'On' and 'Off' button my thoughts wandered to visions of mass power outages, smoking machines, and spinning clocks. A living SciFi film with a time machine at my finger tips. 

I reached for the ON button. Click. Beep. Beep. Grind. Then flashing acronyms and symbols.  The journey was about to begin I thought. The instructor, a tall English woman with a tightly wound scarf and a laugh that always ended with a snort, typed in a few letters to show off the Email function.  Then 'beep', the computer shut off.  I sat with little shock.  I knew I knew it is what I thought.  After the instructional 'snort', the instructor mumbles some darn technology comments and switches the machine back on.  Click. Beep. Beep. Grind.  Flash.  She presses a few keys on the keyboard to quickly bring up the email function once again and before it could 'compute' the machine shuts off again.  "It's a sign." I think to myself as I slowly move back from the machine. She gives me a "maybe you're right" kinda look and rolls her chair in front of the computer. After a few attempts, she decides she will let the computer cool down for a bit and goes into the history and purpose of the World Wide Web. 

The computer did eventually fulfill its promise.  At that time there were no email addresses that I knew but the instructor's personal email.  There were few pages to view. (I do wish I could remember the first page I viewed.)  But all in all I was amazed at the new world I was witnessing.  I studied my little HTML  book and continued to be amazed. 

2012. Within seconds high speed internet connection opens with information for everything.  My communication with most people are via email or social media sites, such as Facebook.  I am no longer afraid to press buttons and now venture into problem solving tech issues.  I have said hello and goodmorning to individuals over the waters and can view video footage of astronauts in space, learn how to build a exploding device, how to make the best saskatoon pie, murder, birth, war, peace, misery, happiness, church, sweatlodge, history, future, minds, voices, poetry, films, porn, love, marriage, divorce, friendship, racism, freedom - or how to build a house.  There are no limits to what can be found on the internet - The Web.    

The Web - we are all connected.  Yet .... we are apart.  Difficult to disconnect from the invisible life line we have all become so dependent.  I am still amazed at times at the capibilities of this communication attachment.  I can connect with a stranger as I view and read thought provoking text or his/her daily activities.  They let me in with a new kind of trust or 'need'.  Yet....there are limits to how far they will let you travel 'in' .  Those invisible lines of communication keep the humans apart but connected.  Safe. Safe from face to face interaction which may lead to human sensory communication while exposing the author with all its truths and deceptions. 

I miss the mystery and amazement meeting new people without needing the "ON" button close at hand.  The risk of rejection or the passionate acceptance of real 'live' humans. 

Spirit Message

If you have wandered into this site, "welcome". I don't advertise or roam to much to grab attention. But when the attention does come so does the interesting questions and relationships.

I was just reminded of a reemerging message to everyone, us; no particular color, religion, or political stand needed, just an ability to listen. Those who 'know' will understand. There is a time when using what we 'know' will be the most important guide for survival. A spiritual war that began with a division of tribes that occurred during ancient times. During a time when the mysteries of today were not hidden but common knowledge and practice for everyone. The generations of distorted versions of history have attempted to erase all memory or knowledge of these times. A duty that has been passed down to ensure that the unfolding of goals emerge. These goals or ambitions are not in the best interest of those who cherish their freedom. A reawakening of genetic memory that will give rise to the knowledge that will reconnect our existence with our original ancestors for the sake of our survival. This is not a string of words open for debate. If you know then it will make sense. If you don't it is not my responsibility to convince you.

All is good and the way it should be.

Involved in the world somehow

Amazing how a few dollars can change a day. Took my daughter and grandson to McDonalds today. That is such a treat. For some crazy reason it involves us in the world somehow, sitting in a restaurant, fast food amongst other families. We always supersize the meal so we can share. That was our treat for the month and it was great! I finished the chopping and editing of a poetry manuscript I needed to hand off to be read. That's done! Although tiny steps, those are the steps I need to continue to take in order to change my reality. That always sounds so odd when i write that. 'change my reality'. But that is what i want to do. i feel like i have been in a fog for so many years. When I look in the mirror I don't recognize that older person. When I review my day I am disgusted at the time I have spent in the fog. I have sat with so many women that have taken my words and friendship and said they are better for it. Yet I have so hard a time making those words/insights my reality.

I came across a site the other day about four young guys traveling and living the life to the fullest by living out a list they compiled. 'what do you want to do before you die?'. This got me to thinking. I and my daughter decided to put together our own list. Amazing how the whole world can open up when you dream. I will post my list when it is completed. My daughter says she needs a day or two to think about it. Imagine that. hahaha....but that is because we want to transform the list into a list of "things we have done in our life". I think that is a good plan.

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"if you only had one day to live, what would you do before you die?"